There are times in our lives and worlds where we see the signs that things aren’t quite ‘right’, but we just don’t know how to fix what ever it is that’s going on.

Let me explain what I mean…

This morning, Dom and I were out walking as we do every morning, and more often than not, the conversation tends to be reasonably ‘deep’ by some standards. Other times, it’s surface level stuff like the kind of work outs were doing and how our bodies are reacting and things like that.

This morning, though, we were talking about our dreams from the night before/earlier in the week and how they are oddly aligned! Crayz, huh?

I was jibber jabbering all of my words out to him (he’s learned to just listen and nod and go ‘oh yeah’ and let me get all of the words out of my face!!!) and I was saying how much better my brain is feeling today. Like all the neurons are firing and my brain is feeling electric. It’s awesome!

We talked about why it’s different this week…

And I made mention that I haven’t had champagn for 2 weeks and I KNOW that this makes a massive difference to how my brain functions. Sad but true. Actually it’s devastingly true, because I LOVE champagne. I just don’t like how I feel for 2 weeks following the joy of drinking it!

Anyhoo… I also made mention of some other things that I’ve been noticing.

I wake up with songs playing in my head. Every single morning….. when I have done ‘the work’ that I need to do on a consistent basis.

What I mean by that, is that I do energy work daily, I do clearings daily, I work I my zone of awesomeness every day. When I’m on fire, sparkly and shiny…

I wake up to tunes in my head!

And I LOVE IT.

I was saying how they’re back! My songs are back! I’m dreaming again. I’m inspired again.

Everything has fallen into place…

So he asked me “So, why haven’t you been doing the energy clearings daily before this”?

I gave the example of a friend of mine who is working through depression. I remember her telling me, that when she was knee deep in the thick of it, not able to get out of bed, that some of the advice she was given was “to get outside and just go for a walk, it will make you feel better”… and the fact of the matter was, it didn’t matter how much she tried to motivate herself, even though she KNEW logically that she’d probably feel better if she did get up and go for a walk, she physically could not bring herself to do it.

I’ve felt similar to this in the past, where no matter how much my brain tried to talk me into doing something, I just could not and would not do ‘the thing’ that I knew would make me feel better.

Have you ever had dreams where you’re paralysed in fear? Like you just can’t move? It’s scary, right? Your chest constricts, your breathing is shallow and much of the time, you’re lying there, screaming on the inside in terror, but nothing is coming out.

It’s not until something changes – usually a decision that gets made or something else happening – that brings you back to ‘reality’ and kind of wakes you up. To me, it’s like the merging of the conscious mind and the unconscious mind working together to go “HEY! That’s enough now”…. And something snaps.

I used to smoke. Yes, I did. And I loved it! But, when I fell pregnant with my oldest daughter, I chose to quit. Just like that, and it was done.

When I decide to do something or stop doing something, it’s just like a line has been drawn and id’s done.

But with the smoking example, all the cajoling, shaming, advertising and even the smell wasn’t enough to stop me from doing it. It was just deciding “no more, Nicola”.

It’s in the DECIDING that things work.

It’s in the then taking action – aligned action – that things start to work

For my friend, she made the decision to get help. It’s like she had decided that enough was enough, and that was it. Decision made to do something about it.

When you DECIDE to ‘let go’ of the shoulds, the ‘musts’ and the ‘9 dots’ of the way that things must be done and you allow yourself to sink into YOU, the real you, the you who has a freaking amazing message, vision and content to share, things just kind of spiral into a vortex of awesomeness and things work. The second you try to fit it into a standardized way of doing things, BAM! You’re out.

You need to make the decision for you.

I’m not here to cajole you, shame you, motivate you or even inspire you into action.

I’m here to show you that when YOU decide, I’ll be here waiting for you, hand outstretched, ready to walk next to you as you step out into the world and show YOU

What are you waiting for?

Nicola x