I decided late last year that I was going to finally OWN the fact that I WANT to work in my business part-time. That means, for me, I am still working ‘in it’ daily with clients, creating content, delivering kickass events, road trips and flying across the country to do all the things I LOVE to do… and I also want to spend time renovating this house and perhaps other houses, too.

And. Throw into the mix that I’ve enrolled in a degree program that requires 15hrs a week of study if I want to knock it over in 4 years.

And. I’m very involved in my Roller Derby League, which requires a lot more time now that the Rona restrictions have eased.

And. I am still a mother of 3 children!

And. I am still a wife, daughter, sister, etc etc!

Yep, I have a lot on my plate, and I LOVE IT….

Yet, this morning I didn’t have anything pressing that needed my attention in the first few hours of my day… except for a few things I wanted to sort out around the house.

In the busyness of life, I realised this morning, as I wandered around the house, getting it ‘in order’ that there have been a few things that were out of alignment for me.

This creates annoyance.

There were games in our ‘formal lounge’ (it’s so not formal, but it has a fireplace. We normally call it the Fire Lounge. I don’t know why I called it the ‘formal lounge’. Weird! Hahaha!) that have been sitting on an antique Hall Stand that I’ve been trying to sell… since Xmas.

Literally, actually, since before Christmas because we did the Mildura Xmas here before Xmas day as we were in Adelaide. So even longer than I thought!

They’ve been sitting there, staring at me for 4 months.

There was a side table in there as well, that had been waiting for repair that hadn’t been relocated.

A fan that never gets used in there.

A box of Roller Derby stuff that needs to be retained that shouldn’t be living in there!

And then….I moved into the next room and realised that I hadn’t yet put the stuff away from when my parents were here.

And then… I realised that there was stuff in the workout room not put away.

Then the laundry!

Then… are we bored yet?!?!

Hahaha!!!

Long story short, I went the whole way around the house, tidying, sorting, putting shit away that should be away.

Then. I got to the kitchen again. I put the things away. Wiped the benches. Sorted it all out. Rolled down the ‘door’ to the coffee/kettle/toaster area (not sure what that thing is actually called!!) to find a freaking COCKROACH riding the wave of the roller door thingy!!! VOMIT. .

Knocked it off down to the floor. Killed it. Remains in the bin with a lovely “rest in peace” as I dropped the paper towel into the bin.

Cockroach funeral – DONE!

Surely my work here is done.

But then I looked at the tea towels. They were NOT even.

GASP. SHOCK.  HORROR.

I fixed that, quick smart. Made sure they were in the middle of the oven.

Symmetrical, naturally.

Same tones.

Matchy. Matchy.

Feeling like my job here was done, and all before 10 am…. I sat at the bench, ready to bust out the computer and get myself sorted when I realised I hadn’t showered!

So did all of that…

Came back out, computer open…

And the tea towels taunting me.

Looking at me from across the kitchen.

It was like they were asking me “What’s next? If you didn’t have your computer, if you didn’t have your business, if you didn’t have The Coffee Run, if you didn’t have your work, fi you decided to become “A kept woman” like you were talking about yesterday…….. what would you now do?”

I looked at the tea towels and had a telepathic conversation with them.

It went something like: I have NO idea!

The house is sorted.
My friends are at work.
My kids are at camp, at school and with friends.

I mean, I could read, I guess.
I could study.
I could go for a walk (but I’ve already walked 3.5kms today and worked out at the gym).
I could make sure the house is EXTRA sorted.
I could …..

Wow! What would I actually do?

While I was sitting here, looking at the tea towels, pondering the oddness of this feeling, with nothing urgent requiring my attention…

I reminded myself that I am so freaking glad that I am who I am and that I do what I do!

I am so grateful that I have the time and space to create what I want.

That I have the business that I have.

That I have the clients that I have.

That I have the support that I have.

That I have the ability to invent and reinvent whenever I want.

That I can reach people around the world.

That I have a platform to do what I feel like I do best. (Not better than anyone else. I’m not comparing. I am at MY best when I’m doing ‘this’ thing).

The thing that I DO BEST, is this.

The crazy-ass mix of entrepreneurship and life.

In fact.

It’s exactly this, the mix of life and purpose and bliss and joy… while everything is in its place!!!! It makes me happy! Hahahaha!!

It was a bit of a family laugh about a decade ago, where I would get called Bree Van De Kamp. You know, from Desperate Housewives? Perhaps a little OCD, definitely OTT when it came to some things. Back then, it gave me a sense of control. It helped me to feel like I had things sorted when everything in my head was ridiculously chaotic.

As a demonstration of my personal growth and obvious increased fabulousness, I made sure those tea towels were messed up. Just a little.

They are now not symmetrical! They are not evenly lined up.

Give me strength to resist the urge to make it all ‘perfect’. Because perfect is not real. Perfect is not reality. Perfect is unattainable.

The rest of the house can be in order, I’ve decided. But the tea towels… they can sit there being annoyingly not perfect.

The even funnier thing is that we don’t often have people here. Nobody but us gets to see the house on the daily. I’m sure you don’t care about my tea towels!!!!!

Man I’m such a rebel!!!

What this got me thinking about though, was how often we strive for the perfect.

The perfect Instagram grid.
The perfect post.
The perfect hair.
The perfect number of words.
The perfect tones.
The perfect words.
The perfect body.
The perfect feed.
The perfect profile.
The perfect website.

All of the perfect.

Yet. For some you, perhaps your idea of perfect, is having the tea towels not even hung up! (I don’t know this could even be so, but I am smart enough to know that it could be a thing!!).

For some of you, perfect is one thing and for some of you, perfect is the complete opposite.

Stop getting your knickers in a twist about trying to do it ‘right’..

Just freaking DO IT!

The world needs to SEE YOU, in all of your glory.

Perfect tea towels or not.

The thing is this.. it can take practice to do this.

It takes COURAGE. (I mean, what if we get judged by the colour of our tea towels!?!?!?!?)

It takes BRAVERY.

It takes tenacity.

It takes personality.

Most of all, though, you’ve just got to do it!

So here’s the deal, my friends:

It’s time.

Your time.

Time to get yourself out there.

Time to go help some people.

Time to have FUN doing it!!!

Because the World is Ready For Your Brand of Awesome.

Nic x

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